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Abcity
04:07
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Dark meanders of my mind
I’m thinking about taking over
There’s gotta be some place where I can hide away
And I know
The life I had from then
The pleasure and the pain
I wanna behold the past with pride and hope in what I can find
I’m ready to roll
I left my road rage home
The sun is a nebulous promise
And I will try to stick around this time
Wide awake
With my dreams and my mistakes
And the face of a savior instead
Or the breath of a better world to which I head
Abcity…Abcity…Abcity
On that road
I’ll make my way alone
I figured there was a sense
Just to feel all the pain within my bones
Oh…I waited
I waited for so long
I hooked my mind to a chain
Just to see how strong I wanted to escape
To abcity…abcity…abcity…abcity
I dream of a better place where I don’t have to hide
I dream of another place where I don’t have to cry
Abcity…abcity…abcity…abcity…abcity
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Hollow
04:13
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Along the dusty path I’m carrying my burden of boredom
A bunch of birds is clouding the road where I came from
The freezing frost is very slowly blowing away
The sound of reassuring voices evaporates
A hollow…a hollow….a hollow mind in another town
The whispering sky caresses my heating face
Playing with the shallow shadows the sun has traced
I could be thinking of a million things I felt
When I was out there…But that’s why I left
A hollow…a hollow….a hollow mind in another town
Well my rage’s gone
My stir’s gone
My pain’s gone
The bad feelings are gone
I’m vacuum
I’m gathering gloom
There’s not a single reason in here
For me to stay
A hollow…a hollow….a hollow mind in another town
A hollow…a hollow….a hollow mind in another town
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Nothing at all
03:35
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I was drifting
I was tasting…hesitating
I was out of road
I was crying
I was calling…no one hearing
I was left alone
I was a sailor on a river
Of boredom…of wildness
I was worst and best
I was a hunter in the dark
I was moving the branches of sadness
That struck my face
I was a homeboy
Everybody’s toy
Obeying everything every time
I was soft and hard
I was broken
I was filth…I was greed
I was nothing at all
They got me weakened
And frightened
I was blind I was fool
I was destroying myself
‘cause I was nothing at all
I was nothing at all
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Stitches
02:18
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Stitches..I try to hide
Bruises…along the ride
You only deal with solid boys
Strong and hard
I always walked on trembling grounds
Dropping my cards
But I will let you hurt the core
I will let you hurt me more
‘cause I’m the prisoner of your love
The fortress where I hide…and hide away
The sinner in your home
The darkness where I cry…and cry away
Why are we running from our stitches?
Why are we running from our stitches?
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Chasing the monsters
04:41
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Flickering Flies
Like Trojan Horses
Trying to penetrate into my blood
And starting to blow
Endless stories
Of cocks and whores
I’m trying to concentrate
And weigh off the loss
But I’m chasing the monsters
To weigh off the loss
I’m chasing the monsters
The end of the trip
Is like a desperate strip
The reaching of abcity
Pulls the freaks in my mind
Pulls the freaks in my mind
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Abcity # 2
04:38
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Eyes… my darkening eyes
Are nowhere hiding…are nowhere hiding
Here…In this town
Where no one’s living
And everything is unauthorized… unauthorized…
I wander…I wander…I wander again
I wander…I wander…Looking for another soul asleep
Ears… my stranded ears
Are trying to pick through…are trying to pick through
The void…of this town
Where no one’s moving
And this place feels so out of compromise… out of compromise…
I wander…I wander…I wander again
I wander…I wander…Looking for another soul asleep
With a heart I can not fill
And some dreams that seemed unreal
I was not ready to fight with this little soul of mine
Though the enemies are not here
And the only thing to fear
Is this pain and loneliness inside of me
That grows and moans and blows…
Oh I wander...I wander…I can’t hide…Where is my homeland?
I’m lost in Abcity.
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My very own evening
04:15
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It’s my very own evening
Belongs to me… belongs to me
Life goes aside my tunnel
But I’ll dig it in
My very own evening
Time has fallen on my inspiration
Gotta do it all
Got the night for all
This painting and singing and reading the books
That have piled on my shelf
‘cause my mind holds no stores
And I already know that I will hang around
And I’ll look for the ceiling
To support me with a sign
And I know in advance that the battle is lost
And this wanting it all
Puts me deep in a hole
And Time won’t play around
Belongs to me…belongs to me…
I’m thrown like a golden rocket
In a desert land
Who gets satisfied?
I thought inspiration would flow off my mind
But Time goes by
And I haven’t started out
To think over my failures
And write it all down
‘cause I spit in a bucket
With a hole in the ground
And I can hear the ticking of unforgivable clocks
That make fun of myself
While I stick to my tracks
This grown up voices they suddenly shout
‘cause they won over the child
Yeah they won over the child.
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Alone in the end
02:54
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I crossed the darkest situations
On a crowded road
I searched for pieces of attention
But the looks were odd
I was amused by so many people
They were confused when I stayed at home
It’s so strange to be on your own
I feel lone…I feel lone…So lone..
For so long
I burnt my soul in caves and basements
Giving myself away
I hooked the tropheys to the meter
And felt so good this way
But when the night descended on me
When I believed my own blood would kill me
Nobody left could save me
I feel lone…So lone…Alone in the end
I searched for my soul and was dying alone
Here in my home
Dry in my bones
And so lone.
I feel lone…So lone…Alone in the end
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Back in the days when I was a weak pawn
Hurtful jokes on my weight they cracked upon
I was the belly monster
My adolescence could wait
The million years I’d need to escape
Unable to undress on the beach
Boiling up inside a pain no one could reach
I was the flabby brother
Food was my only link
With Mother while others were making me sink
Oh…Those dark days are done
My bad luck is gone
But still today
I don’t feel okay
When I look in the mirror’s eye
Somehow in my mind I’m still
The boy you’re laughing at.
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Story of a man
08:32
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This is the story of a man
A dreamy boy…fragile child
He decided to leave it all, get a life quit his protective shelter
Where the shades of his soul-eating family couldn’t make him shine anymore
Well…the innocence
That childish blessed virtue
He had lost could maybe (maybe) be found
In another city
With another skin
He didn’t really know who he was
But for sure he would learn where to search
His continuous laughter was fake
His admiration for the others was fake
And the chain of friends he thought he had built was fake.
It was best to go
He had to break the bonds
Prove himself he was a man
And not a child anymore
He never wondered where he meant to wander
What he would do if he could have a choice
See the bright blue mountains
Cross the shallow seas
Or simply lay in the white cotton grass flowers
He never wondered if those lovers were players
Moving randomly on the stage of his profound despair
If the diversity he chose was just a diversion
Or some kind of perversion of his identity
So he left
And he walked
And the walk was tiring and lonely
He was loosing track of time
Going somewhere but he was still nowhere
He was a nowhere man
Making his way through so many hurdles
And still knowing that he was golden
‘cause that’s the way he was born
And you can’t change the way you were born right?
And escaping always escaping
Just moving always moving
Doing things always doing things
Never resting never ever resting
When the city appeared
It stood like a giant fortress
Sleeping in the arms of a slippery hill
Giving her hand for forgiveness
He crossed the wooden bridge up the small hill
And down the first constructions
The sun too was escaping slowly
The atmosphere was getting cold
And a dismal fog was starting to threaten
But the scenery was so stunning
Broken cars
Smashed windows
A smell of confined air
As if he had opened the door
Of a secret unspoiled jar
With no treasures inside
Some magazines were thrown on the ground
Dating from the old times
Showing the only faces that could be found in this town
‘cause no one was living here
Everything was in ruin
Everybody had left
There was no soul to talk too
No bars to walk through
No shelter to run to
So he walked again
But this time he was going nowhere
Abcity…abcity was all fake
And all the sacrifices he made
Maybe the worst mistake he’d ever done
The worst mistake he’d ever done
Leaving his city
Leaving his friends his family his love
Thinking of the past as a painful burden
He had to get rid of as quickly as he could
And now he was alone
Face to face with himself
And this time he could not escape
He had to look inside the mirror
The mirror of his life the mirror of his body
He just had to go and face it
You can’t destroy your past
You can always burry your memories
Bad moments and sufferings
The figure of your parents
How they brought you up
But it never disappears
It sticks to your skin
For ever
Abcity is the graveyard of my depression
The wall of my selfishness
It’s the place where my illusions had to crash
The match that lights good memories
And makes me realize
In the end everything is not that bad
And I’m not afraid anymore
I’m not afraid anymore
I’m not afraid anymore…
This is the story of a man.
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11. |
Falling in love
03:27
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I want to hold you
Like a baby child
And I want to kiss you
And feel your blood run wild
Well I’m falling more for you
When the rest is all falling apart
And I had never thought it’d go this far
In my soul in my heart
Will you take me as I am…?
Could you love me like a man..?
We’ll drink we’ll laugh we’ll melt our bodies round the world
We’ll dream and kiss and make it seem so easy
I think I’m falling in love…
Your deep dark eyes
Are the lighthouse of my pain
And your long curly hair
Are dancing in my brain
Well the simplest smile for you
Takes away the shadows of my youth
Maybe you’re the one I always wanted
Or maybe you’re the one I always wanted to be…
Will you take me as I am…?
Could you love me like a man..?
We’ll drink we’ll laugh we’ll melt our bodies round the world
We’ll dream and kiss and make it seem so right
So right…
So right…
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